The day has finally arrived!

I'm sitting here with my first copy of my book, "In His Eyes," in my hands. I can't believe this day has finally arrived. I first started writing almost 14 years ago when I had just left Sam. At first it was just a notebook I carried around with me, jotting down feelings as they surfaced. As time went on, I started remembering more and more things Sam had done or said that were abusive, so I'd jot those down too. Before I knew it, I was putting all these thoughts into categories. Oh, here's another one for how he treated me in public, or this is what our holidays together were like. Slowly but surely, a book was starting to form.

At the time, I was also reading everything I could get my hands on to learn about other women's experiences with emotional abuse. But I was so disappointed that there wasn't much out there on this type of abuse. Lots and lots on women who were battered physically, but the emotional battering seemed secondary and almost dismissed. That was when I knew I wanted to turn my rambling thoughts into a book.

I wanted other women to know that they weren't alone and they weren't crazy! I wanted them to know that their partner's treatment of them was unacceptable and that they weren't the cause of it. I wanted them to know that loving someone does not have to involve emotional pain and mental agony.

So here I sit, 14 years later, with this book in my hand... praying that anyone who feels today the way I was feeling then, will read it and know that they are not alone and that there is hope and happiness available to them.

More later...